Jagung bakwan n tahu

I don't need being recognized, I already out off it.. I'm not expected your recognize as I don't expect you guys to understand me better.
Let people who seen me like jerk still see me like that, let people who's see me unable still underestimate me..
Cause since beginning of my life I'm already fought for it. Fight to be like them, to do what others do, to be my self even though still doing what they expect me to do. I'm used to it.
Being see as bad as I can be even with my own families.
Even when I done nothing, they'll still thought me doing something bad
Sometime on past I ever think, whats the point restrain my self so hard, walling my self from doing normal kids do only to look as good kid, but at last for them I still ugly n bad person.
Like I said I'm now out off it, hoping for their recognize n good point of few of me I'm left it behind
This is the way I live, this was what I decided still beginning, to be someone who seen in dark. Lonely person with wolf walk-in alone at night, no body expect me to appear or will do anything. Show up like no one will know when or where. I'm doing my life like a surprise..
I hope just someday they'll understand it n I can give the most happy surprise for them
I don't need to be grabbed at those togetherness but I hope I can make those kind of togetherness..